未知死焉之生

人一生下來，就開始與死神展開賽跑，幸運的，七、八十年才會被追上，

跑得慢的，可能二、三十歲就會被帶走，

所以每一分每一秒都非常珍貴，

我們真的無法預知明天、下個月會在哪裡，因此更要珍惜當下，

活得精彩，就不會有遺憾…

After the event of my mum, i realized the fragility of life and the plan of destiny.  You never know what's going to happen.  So live your life in the way that you know death is coming.

Life is beautiful

Whenever you are down, remind yourself life is wonderful.  Why people doubt you, remind yourself you should keep up and have your own world.  There is no guarantee for constant easiness or happiness, but love your life, have faith, and believe everything is meaningful.  The biggest lesson i want to teach my baby is please love passionately the life you want, and love the people surround you.

The worst day ever

2014/9/26
The worst day in my life. My dearest mum has confirmed lung cancer - adenocarcinoma stage 3. At this stage she cannot do surgery and given she showed EGFR negative, she cannot use target medi. The only cure is chemo. I feel so sad she has to undergo the painful process, aiming only to extend life.

My mum is the most health conscious person I know. She doesn't smoke, no family history of cancer, seldom eat out, insists on eating light and natural food, healthy diet and habits. Why did the god to this to her? She just retires and about to enjoy the relaxing life!! For stage 3 lung cancer, the survival rate in 5 years is less than 10 percent!!!! My mum is the most important person to me in the world. Why this happen to us?

I still hope she could recover and live a good life.

Gratitude

Gratitude 1: met with Kelly after a hectic month. Hope that she can have a decision soon and move on. Also restart the exciting dating again! For me my biggest hope is that my mum is healthy, and the whole family can be happy together.

Gratitude 2: glad that I started a new job and have good colleagues around.

Gratitude 3: love from my darling.

寄語自己

如此害怕改變的你
在經歴種種生命的安排
失去和驚喜
難道還不懂得人生就是不斷的學習和成長
唯有explore才有可能

以貴族的方式對待自己

因此不卑不亢 有氣質有自信
要相信自己

母親節

希望有個知冷知熱  知道我要什麼的老公
而不是個take for granted的人

壓抑

累

有時候想想
結婚很沒有意思
老公不見得疼你
只懂發脾氣
而且認為媽媽就是要顧小孩
小孩只會哭叫
想要有一點私人時間別人會說為什麼你不陪小孩

雖然都是最親近的人
還是令人感覺負擔
我想一人放假想要自由

自由

當我說很累的時候
你的回應是這麼不耐煩
這真令人心痛

有時我很想逃跑
到一個自由自在的地方
能好好放松

為什麼努力

This is a period of time I feel a lot of stress at work. Anxious and painful body.
I feel I was driven by fear, the fear of underperformance and the fear of losing my job.
I am also driven by the slight hope that there is possible opportunities. Like light in the end of tunnel.
I am also driven by the eager to approve myself. I want others to see me as important and feel important.

I should also learn to speak more strategically n from the angle of the other one. As well as ways to relax myself.

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